ProfessorTomoe

I do not know.

Yes, there were circumstances she raised which led to her decisions. I merely pointed to the "emotional affair" as the final inciting incident which led to the demise of their relationship. Oh, he realizes he had problems. I just didn't want to bring them up in such a short essay. To put things simply, he suffers from a form of "Non-24" sleep disorder which prevents him from having a regular sleep schedule. The way he sees it, she'd had enough of putting up with his disability. Combined with her own mental illnesses, which were beginning to become non-trivial, things got to be too much for her. She has flat out refused counseling. It's a non-starter.

Let's see if we can consolidate some of the "what are you eating/drinking/breathing" threads into this one. I am currently ingesting Crystal Light tea. Just had some hummus & pita chips beforehand. I'm considering getting a glass of Bulgarian buttermilk (I was shocked that my local Albertson's actually had the Bulgarian style! Nom.).

This is not for public dissemination. I'm bringing it up because I need to discuss it, and I can't discuss it anywhere else. My son shared the unfortunate news with my wife and myself last night that he is getting a divorce. More accurately, his soon-to-be-ex-spouse informed him she wants a divorce and moved back in with her parents, with no desire to attempt marriage counseling. Said event took place several weeks ago, at around the time she had what he called an "emotional affair" with a co-worker. He's been alone in their apartment ever since, and has it until the lease runs out at the end of May. We first learned that there might be trouble in their relationship around three weeks ago. He stopped talking after that point, leaving us to fear the worst. So, last night's announcement didn't really come as much of a shock. The details were a bit of a surprise, but that's about it. We offered to let him move back in once his lease runs out (he's 37, BTW). He accepted without argument or hesitation. After we finished discussing the details of the divorce, the rest of the evening was spent preparing his room for his return, and preparing a meal of Japanese curry (mentioned elsewhere on these forums). We watched some Ice Hockey as we ate, as he is a huge fan of the sport. (I'm just a fan of the Dallas Stars.) I was dreading his announcement prior to his arrival Thursday evening. After he made it, I felt a mix of sorrow and relief - sorrow for his situation, and relief that the tension was finally over. However, I'm a bit concerned by the way I feel now, on the day after his announcement. To be blunt, I don't really feel much of anything. I'm usually an overthinker, borderline OCD. I suffer from the occasional intrusive thought, and I imagined that I'd be overthinking my son's situation like crazy. However, I'm not, and that concerns me. The only thing that really triggered me to think about the situation was my wife saying she needed ice cream after last night's events. That booted my brain into action. I really don't know what I should be doing here, now that I've put things down into the digital medium. Should I leave things as they were before my wife spoke up? Do I need to give things more thought? I'm at a loss. Things haven't been helped by my physical situation today, which has been total crap. I'm open for input. 'Twould be most appreciated.

Did some cooking last night. Made Japanese curry. My son was over, so he helped. My wife helped cut some of the carrots as well. My main jobs were to dissect the three very nice New York Strips I'd bought from Walmart (surprising place for them!), to get everything together (except for the koshihikari rice - that was my son's job), and do the main cooking duties. We used Vermont Curry Hot roux, in the large size. We normally use S&B, but I wanted to try Vermont for once. It's nice, but it's got no heat to it. I like S&B better for that reason alone. All in all, it came out great. The koshihikari rice is definitely worth the money and the hype. It's fantastic stuff. Can't wait to try it with just some goma shio furikake on it. I *almost* messed up the meat by overcooking it, but I rescued it at the last second and instead just got a wonderful fond that left a great flavor behind in the pot. One downer is that I got a bit ill toward the end of cooking and had to let my son take over for a few minutes. He pronounced it finished, and my wife brought me a bowl. I ate several bites, then had to surrender to whatever was making me feel sick. All that work, and then I couldn't even finish a bowl. Bummer. At least my wife and my son went back for seconds. I take solace in the knowledge that the flavors in my bowl (which is in the fridge, under plastic wrap) will have commingled and will be even better when I'm finally able to get to them.

...and true to the thread topic, my Profile thread seems to have fixed itself. How annoying to have done this right after I posted about it.

Am I the only person whose Facebook Profile thread says, "No Posts Found"? I mean, the posts are there. I can see them if I select the "View As" function. I just can't see them as myself on my Profile page at the moment.

I'd like to use this thread as a way to highlight new releases of my music. Anyone else who has any music coming out is welcome to do the same. For starters, I've just released a song called "Ant Farm Melee" to my Bandcamp account. You can read all about it on my latest blog post. Please grab a copy of the song today!

The YouTube task is done. Here are the links: 1st movement - https://youtu.be/bGvums5A6jg 2nd movement - https://youtu.be/1UA9Knu5S_s 3rd movement - https://youtu.be/U8MRGV5H5Vo 4th movement - https://youtu.be/0nA_0WMHkTY Playlist with all four movements - https://youtu.be/bGvums5A6jg?si=tjmu1Y-iWBa3sEDx Enjoy with your favorite beverage.

I need a "safe keeping" score so I can have one to send out to a band director at a moment's notice. It's not for my safe keeping, therefore, it's for theirs.

I think...I think...I think I've completely finished proofreading all four movements of my band arrangement of Bruckner's 6th Symphony. Furthermore, I think I've finished putting all of the bells and whistles on it (e.g., adding a title sheet and a contents/arranger's notes page, making sure that everything is symmetric from one movement to the next, etc.). In other words, I think I'm finally, finally finished with this four-movement, 133-page behemoth of a work. Now, I need to print out and have bound three copies of the score (two to send out, one for safe keeping), but I will probably only be able to afford to do two at the moment. Both of the printed & bound copies will have to be sent out. Until I can get to that part, I'm working on getting all four movements up on YouTube. I will advise when they're up.

My left knee surgery has been rescheduled...yet again...to April 30th. I forget how many times this makes it now that it's been rescheduled. In the latest snafu, I was supposed to have had a pre-op appointment today (Friday, Apr.12), after which the surgery would be scheduled, so I guess that would have been the equivalent of a rescheduling on its own. However, the pre-op doctor said I couldn't have a pre-op appointment without surgery scheduled first. Go figure. So, I went and got surgery scheduled for the 30th, then got the pre-op scheduled for the 18th of April. Now I'm finally set in the right order, I guess. Sheesh.

As with the thread from the previous incarnation of the board, I begin this one with a request that the information within remain confidential. This is a thread for those seeking support as they deal with very sensitive situations involving either their own or a loved one's health. Please let this be a thread where such information can be shared with a level of trust. Now, back to the topic at hand. I picked up my second filling of Brintellix yesterday—all $141 of it, for a month's supply. I find it odd that it is an antidepressant, yet the price is so high that it is depressing just to purchase it. As for its effects, I'm still getting used to them. I haven't been able to sleep for more than three hours at a time for a couple of weeks now. When I do wake up in the middle of the night, I'm not groggy. In fact, I feel for at least a short time that I've had a decent night's sleep. That sensation only lasts a few hours, though. I don't crash out—I just sort of fade to the point where I need to sleep again. Very weird. I've also lost weight. Not a lot, but every pound counts, and it's been a slow and steady drop. Some of this might be related to the small dose of metformin that I'm on (my A1C hit 6.5 again, causing my primary doctor to freak out). I seriously don't know. Whatever the reason, it made my cardiologist happy at my appointment yesterday. Speaking of cardiologists, mine determined that I am status quo as far as my PVCs are concerned. He hasn't seen them in the short 30-second EKGs he runs at every appointment, but the memory of my Holter monitor results from several years ago is enough to keep him on his toes. Still, he saw no reason to increase my lisinopril or to add a beta blocker to my shoebox full of medicines. I hope this thread will be as useful as the last one was. Thanks for any support you can provide.

I entered a competition earlier this year called the loadbang 2024 International Composition Competition. My entry was titled "Interweave," for 4 woodwinds and 3 brass. Well, it turns out that over 600 other people entered the competition, making my odds of winning very slim. The upshot of this is that I didn't win anything. However, now that the contest is over, I can let you listen to it. Here's the YouTube link: Please note that the first 4 seconds of the video are silent. Feel free to leave comments. Thanks!

I've just returned, more or less, from the King Con Cruise 2024 edition, a convention held by Jon St. John and hosted on Royal Caribbean's Liberty of the Seas cruise ship. My part of the convention was a presentation about the history of Video Game Music, from 8 Bits to 120-Piece Orchestral Scores. I had to do a 60-minute PowerPoint presentation, followed by a 30-minute Q&A and Raffle. Not to brag, but I think it went down pretty well. I got nothing but praise after it was done, with the exception of a couple of people who wanted me to include a game I'd missed. C'est la guerre. Still, I'm happy with the outcome. I don't have any pics or recordings yet, but I will post any that get posted by others in the FB thread.

If I've got my dates right, Happy Birthday to @The Old Hack! May you have many happy returns of the day!

At long last, I've finally finished the fourth movement of Bruckner's 6th Symphony, arranged for concert band / wind ensemble. It's not officially posted anywhere since I have yet to do a full proofreading pass (good lord, it's 415 measures long), but I have got a WeTransfer link to a FLAC file of it up for you to download: https://we.tl/t-7ygAMR3EIF Please feel free to download it. If you do, I would appreciate knowing what you thought of it. Thank you.

Two things: After removing the gauze from the area where the central line was, I noticed that there was a stitch left behind. I don't know if the doctor put one in or if he didn't take one out. In any case, it's one more thing to worry about. I noticed a significant amount of cat fur collecting around the ball of my left foot. Didn't think anything of it until Mrs. Prof noticed blood on my sock. Turns out I have a bleeding ulcer. I've got a podiatrist appointment tomorrow to get it treated.

The announcer at the University of Texas football stadium used to give the score of Slippery Rock football games during Longhorn home games. I miss that since he left this mortal coil.

My line was removed, at last. It was neither a quick nor entirely painless procedure, but it didn't take too long and it didn't hurt too bad. The line was stuck in there pretty good, so the doctor had to get the lidocaine out and pull rather hard. There's a 1mm x 2-3mm ring around the line inside the vein (a "collar") to help keep it in place, and in my case some scar tissue had grown around it - maybe 6-7mm square of scar tissue. Once he got it loose, it just slid right out. Quite gnarly. I'm not supposed to do anything with my arm for the rest of the day, including raising it over my head. After that, I'm a free man, able to lift more than 10lbs once again. Yay.

I'm finally going to get this damned PICC / central line removed today at the hospital. Going to get into the shower in a few minutes, then we'll be headed to Baylor Lake Pointe in Rowlett, TX to have it taken out. I'm hoping for a quick and painless procedure.

New web page up: https://dleejackson.lbjackson.com/2024/02/keil-and-carragan-and-dorico-oh-my/ Includes embeds of players for the first three movements of Bruckner's sixth, arranged for concert band / wind ensemble.

I feel lousy. End of line.

What started out as a seemingly simple procedure turned into a trip to the emergency room Friday afternoon. My home health care nurse had received orders to remove my PICC line from my chest. She started the procedure by removing my sutures, then went on to try and pull out the line. She couldn't - it was hung. She stopped immediately and tried to get a doctor to come out (they wouldn't), then told me to go to the emergency room to get it pulled. I showed up and was immediately given a room - not many patients were there - and a doctor came back and saw me at once. They told me that I didn't have a normal PICC line, but rather had a kind of "central line" that leads through the veins to my heart. Unfortunately, they needed doctors at the "interventional radiology department" to do the removal, and they were gone for the weekend. In other words, they couldn't remove the line. So, they undid what the nurse did, told me to call a doctor and get orders for removal for the line at the hospital, and just wait out the weekend. Joy. Thus I sit, with the central line in my chest, requiring flushes on Saturday and Sunday, waiting for a doctor's orders on Monday. Have fun with that little situation.

Your day sucked, most assuredly. All I had happen this time was to come down with another stinking upper respiratory infection, just a couple of days after coming off of powerfun megaantibiotics. I'm still sick. Gotta call the home health nurses' office today and report that I blew up some yellow-green gunk last night. I'm going to ask if they have my lab results from yesterday.